Rollor Coaster rides............

As many of you know, I thought that I had found my forever daughter, on Thursday I found out that no. that was not my daughter. But God's grace has yet again covered me! I can't say I wasn't hurt or disappointed, I was. God's love and peace swept over me like never before. Thank God I wasn't alone, I happen to be at my parents house for a surprise dinner for my aunts birthday. He has such a loving way of protecting us. Have I give up or am I rethinking His promise to me? NO!! He told me that I have a daughter and when it is time for me to meet her then He will provide the way. I am but flesh and have my weak moments but when I am weak He is strong.
  My adoption verse is John11:40 " If you believe, you will see the glory of God" but if you read the entire chapter it talks about Lazarus raising from the dead. Jesus shows us that what we thought of as dead He can give life too. I had long ago thought that the thought of me being a mother was dead, but Jesus breathed life into me and reminded me of His promise to give us our hearts desire. The Bible also tells us that "we have not because we ask not" and yes we ask and if we don't get our answer right then we think that God has not heard our prayer or that it is not His will, but in John 4 when Jesus heals the son of an official it didn't happen all at once, it took time for the mans son to get well. We just have to believe. Again it is faith that carries us. Without faith what do we have? The lies of satan? The nay sayers of the world?Where will that get us? No where! So many times we miss our blessings on our way to our miracles! (thanks 4R for that word)  So many of us miss the blessings ( I know I have done that) when we look to the side or behind us instead of keeping our eye on the prize, all that Jesus wants us to have. If we just believe in what He tells us and trust in Him then everything will fall in place in His time not ours. God knows what is best for us WHEN it is best for us. Just because WE think it is best for our prayers to be answered NOW, God is in control! I have said more than once thru the years that " I don't want to be 40 and starting my family" and I sure didn't think I would be doing alone but God had other plans. Here I am only a few months from 40 and I'm single and look where God has brought me too, not to mention where He has brought me FROM! Is this going to be easy? NO! Is it going to be without disappointment? NO! But you have to go thru some tests to get a testimony(again thanks 4R!) and go thru a mess to get a message but OH what a sweet sweet reward is waiting on us all!!!! Love and blessings to all!!!