One step closer................

My profile is complete !!! Now to have copies made and sent to the adoption agency then on to Florida!!! God is GREAT!!

    I am amazed at the number of people who support me in this journey, people just keep coming up to me and handing me baby items for me to use with Rama Grace, I swear it is the cutest stuff! Never in a million years did I ever expect to be so blessed by so many people!! I just want to say thanks for all the love, support and gifts !

I'm not looking at the nails anymore

Sitting in church this morning I couldn't help but think how many times I allowed satan to dampen my day. Instead of keeping my eye on the prize(Jesus & His blessings) I listened to satan telling me I can't raise a child on my own, what are ya going to say when she asks " who is my daddy? why don't I have a daddy? all the bad that he could fill my head with. Me being flesh allowed that to happen for brief periods this week. Lord forgive me for being weak and not 100% trusting in You the way You have grown me up to do.I don't have the answers to those questions and that is ok, God has those answers and He will give them to me when it is time. Instead of  looking at what is causing my pain I will keep my eyes on my Lord, my love and my joy.

 I know that God has brought me this far and He will not leave me or forsake me. I know He has plans for me ( Jeremiah .29:11) and that He will provide what I need when I need it. I've told many people during this process that my faith has grown so much and that no matter what I give ALL praise to Him no matter what tomorrow brings! Please do not think I am doubting what God has done, is doing and IS going to do in my life or with  my adoption..I know that He is bringing Rama Grace home!!!

    I have several adoptive parents tell me that I will have good days and bad days during this process and a lot of stress, I give God praise that until this week that has not been an issue. I can say that stress has not  been increased at all. And the "bad" days this week haven't been as bad as they could be. I'm just confessing to God and to you all that I am weak I need prayer to help me keep my eyes and ears only on God, no one else. Yeah I've had a couple people make comments like" Well you won't be like a REAL mom" but you know that wasn't meant to hurt me it was said because that person really don't understand adoption. The good days and the support of family and friends far out weigh the bad. By God's grace my daughter will be here in His time not mine, I just have to continue to pray, stay in the Word and surround my self with the people who love God and who love me!

Items to sell

Just placed an order for my first fundraising item, it is to be here by July 11, will post pictures then. Hope everyone in having a blessed day!!!

New Beginnings............

   Today I was honored with being able to share in the joy of preparing for yet another wedding. This one is different, this wedding is for two of my "kids". I have watched them grow up, fall in love and now they are getting married, I could almost cry just thinking about it. The fact that they have ask me to be apart of their special day blesses my heart more than words can express. I remember the day that Beth told me she liked Wes, we were at a cook out at the Youth Pastors house. We, the girls, sitting on the back porch watching the guys play volleyball. Seems just like yesterday! Tonight as we were getting the decorations together we took a trip down memory lane, got the giggles and just had a great time. It made me think of how much fun it is going to be to do all this with Rama Grace. to watch her grow into a young child, the yes even the teenage year then to a young adult. To get to help her prepare for her wedding and to travel down our own memory lane. What a blessing that will be! Not only is this a new beginning for  the happy couple but a new beginning for me as well. The day dreams of being a mother for the first time, all the unknown. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit scared, but aren't all new mothers? I just praise God that I have the love and support of so many amazing people! God just keeps putting people in my life that encourages me, cheers me on on the days I begin to doubt.
     I look forward to each new adventure God has in store for me while on this journey and all the new beginnings in the future!! Thanks you Jesus!!!
 
    

"Children Of God" - Official Music Video

Blessings...........

  The more I learn about the adoption process as I go and the more I learn about me the more I see that I am not thankful enough for the blessing in my life. God has and is so good to me, that sometimes I think I am unworthy. But thankful beyond measure that He is blessing me the way He is.
 I don't want people to think that this has been easy or that there has been no moments of " Lord what am I thinking?" Satan tries to tear down what God has been giving me by placing doubt in my mind that I, as a single woman, can do this on my own. On the days that I need strength to hold my head up and say "God has got this!" I think of some of my favorite Bible stories, one is the woman at the well. She thought that she was unlovable but Jesus  not only told her of a great love but He showed her the greatest love of all. The love of God, one that has always and always will heal the broken heart, give strength to the weak, voice to the mute and sound to the deaf. To me this story has taught me that no matter what my past, all is forgiven by Him, never to be brought up again, that His love in enough! The second is in Matthew Ch 9, when the man came to Jesus because his daughter had died. Jesus went to the woman looked at her and said in verse 22, "Take heart, daughter. Your faith has healed you"and the woman was healed from that moment ." I am healed, I'm not perfect but I am healed. Healed from my sins, my weakness, my pride and all my hurts. Does this mean I will never have pain or disappointments again, No. It means that no matter what the future holds that I can always trust in His love and that all wounds will be healed by my Lord and savior. This adoption in the healing that I have longed for for many years. I wanted a child from the time I knew what being a mother meant. I had dreamed of having a daughter, all that I would do with her, how I would love her and teach her and watch her grow. Then years passed by and I thought that my desire was not what God's desire was for me. He had placed many wonderful children in my life over the years, I mean how many people say they have hundreds of kids??? I have always referred to the youth groups I have worked with over the years as "my kids" and friends of my niece that would come to the house that I have watched grow up as "my kids" so see I am a mother right? But the hole was still in my heart. So was my desire trying to rise above what God wanted for me? If God's will was not for me to be a mother He would and could take this desire from me if I just prayed hard enough! I just know He can and will, all I have to do is ask. Well I did over and over but the desire was still there. It wasn't until the past few months that I know see that He does want to give me my hearts desire and that He is providing that way now. I just have to keep Him in the center of my life, the center of my adoption, and the center of EVERYTHING! He promises in Mark 11:24 Whatever you ask for in prayer, Believe that you have received it and it WILL be yours!!! So I am claiming that my daughter, Rama Grace is coming and that the moment she is laid in my arms I will give her back to God, she is His, not mine. He is only trusting me to guide her while she is here on Earth. Without Him I would not be where I am in the adoption process or in life in general.Please keep praying for us both that God will give us strength to endure the journey to find each other and for our safety until we are together in our forever family!!!

Items to be sold

As I said in my first post, I am working on items to sell to help fund the adoption, I hope to have pictures and info on the items with in a couple of weeks. In the mean time if anyone would like to make a donation you can email me at grblpn@yahoo.com please put donation in the subject matter along with your contact info (email or phone number) and I will give you the instructions on how to do so and to give you a receipt for tax deduction. Thanks again for your prayers and support! 

June 21,2011

 This is my first ever blog, so bare with me as a learn what it is that I am doing. The purpose of this blog is 1) to help keep family and friends updated on my adoption process and 2) help raise money to bring Rama Grace home sooner!!
  At this point I have completed my home study, found an agency that I love, and have a possible match for a baby girl due around the middle of Oct. 2011. I know this may not seem like a lot to some people but to me and other adoptive families that I know all this has happened extremely fast! I first have to give praise to God for making all of this possible, without Him none of this would have even happened!
 About 4 months ago a couple I know got a call that they had been matched with a baby and they were leaving in a few days to go pick her up. I knew the struggles they had trying to adopt but for some reason when I heard this news my heart broke and I felt so much envy! I tried to hide my emotions from everyone but I am sure I failed. I prayed day and night for God to take the feelings I was having away but He didn't they kept getting worse as the days went by. Then I found out that they were on the way to pick up their brand new baby girl! I couldn't even read the facebook posts or the church emails updating everyone on how happy they all were, how beautiful she is or even look at pictures. Then one night I reached out to my brother, my pastor. I had such guilt about the envy I was feeling I had to talk to someone. As I was pouring my heart out to my pastor it became clear that God had been preparing me for me to adopt a daughter of my very OWN!!!!
  For months before I thought God had been preparing me for another mission trip, which I was fighting against or that he was preparing me for a relationship. Neither  was something I wanted! I had been on a medical mission trip in 2010, grateful for the experience but not wanting to go again. I am divorced and have been for several years and have been quite happy being single so the thought of a new relationship was NOT something I had been praying for either! ( come to find out several other people had been praying that FOR me)
 On the day God revealed to me that His plan was to give me my dream, of making me a mother, I felt as if the entire world was lifted off my shoulders! God told me plainly "You have a daughter, her name is Grace,because by my grace you will have her" So how do you argue with that? Ok so where do I start? God had placed several adoptive families in my life so I began talking to them asking them to help me pray and to help guide me in what needs to be done.
 My family and friends have amazed me with all the prayers and support they give so freely to me and to Rama Grace. I truly have the best family and friends that anyone could ask for!!
 In the near future I will have some fundraising items for sale on here along with information on how and where you can make a donation if you feel lead to do so. I look forward to blogging and hearing from all of you and making new friends! John 11:40