This is my journey to find my forever daughter, Rama Grace. I had prayed for children for as long as I can remember, then one day 3 months ago God began to fill my hearts desire, ADOPTION! Who would have thought a single 40 year old female could adopt a child? GOD that is who!
My Family
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Rollar Coaster ride part 2
Today without a doubt has been the hardest day I have had in my journey. I think I have heard the cruelest words out of another persons mouth that could be spoken. I thank God I was in a position that He kept His hand over my mouth! Today also made me question why things happen the way they do. Why is it someone who is strung out on drugs is carrying her 4th child, that she doesn't want and refers to her child as "that thing" or 'that beast in my belly" and still hasn't turned 30 blessed with the gift of life? When she turned to me and ask where she "could get rid of it" I tried to comfort her while she lay there crying, yelling and cussing. I told her not to make fast decisions that she should consider all options. She then turned to me and stated " I can't carry it and give it to some stupid b**** that can't have kids!" at that point I wanted to forget that I am a Christian and say and do things to that woman !! But as always God was and is in control. I know that there is a reason I had to go through this today and maybe one day I will understand why. But for now all I can do is as for forgiveness for the thoughts I had about that woman, and to pray for her and her unborn child and for the children she has at home. I pray that no adoptive mother ever has to hear such vile and evil words spoken to her. Tomorrow will be better!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Rollor Coaster rides............
As many of you know, I thought that I had found my forever daughter, on Thursday I found out that no. that was not my daughter. But God's grace has yet again covered me! I can't say I wasn't hurt or disappointed, I was. God's love and peace swept over me like never before. Thank God I wasn't alone, I happen to be at my parents house for a surprise dinner for my aunts birthday. He has such a loving way of protecting us. Have I give up or am I rethinking His promise to me? NO!! He told me that I have a daughter and when it is time for me to meet her then He will provide the way. I am but flesh and have my weak moments but when I am weak He is strong.
My adoption verse is John11:40 " If you believe, you will see the glory of God" but if you read the entire chapter it talks about Lazarus raising from the dead. Jesus shows us that what we thought of as dead He can give life too. I had long ago thought that the thought of me being a mother was dead, but Jesus breathed life into me and reminded me of His promise to give us our hearts desire. The Bible also tells us that "we have not because we ask not" and yes we ask and if we don't get our answer right then we think that God has not heard our prayer or that it is not His will, but in John 4 when Jesus heals the son of an official it didn't happen all at once, it took time for the mans son to get well. We just have to believe. Again it is faith that carries us. Without faith what do we have? The lies of satan? The nay sayers of the world?Where will that get us? No where! So many times we miss our blessings on our way to our miracles! (thanks 4R for that word) So many of us miss the blessings ( I know I have done that) when we look to the side or behind us instead of keeping our eye on the prize, all that Jesus wants us to have. If we just believe in what He tells us and trust in Him then everything will fall in place in His time not ours. God knows what is best for us WHEN it is best for us. Just because WE think it is best for our prayers to be answered NOW, God is in control! I have said more than once thru the years that " I don't want to be 40 and starting my family" and I sure didn't think I would be doing alone but God had other plans. Here I am only a few months from 40 and I'm single and look where God has brought me too, not to mention where He has brought me FROM! Is this going to be easy? NO! Is it going to be without disappointment? NO! But you have to go thru some tests to get a testimony(again thanks 4R!) and go thru a mess to get a message but OH what a sweet sweet reward is waiting on us all!!!! Love and blessings to all!!!
My adoption verse is John11:40 " If you believe, you will see the glory of God" but if you read the entire chapter it talks about Lazarus raising from the dead. Jesus shows us that what we thought of as dead He can give life too. I had long ago thought that the thought of me being a mother was dead, but Jesus breathed life into me and reminded me of His promise to give us our hearts desire. The Bible also tells us that "we have not because we ask not" and yes we ask and if we don't get our answer right then we think that God has not heard our prayer or that it is not His will, but in John 4 when Jesus heals the son of an official it didn't happen all at once, it took time for the mans son to get well. We just have to believe. Again it is faith that carries us. Without faith what do we have? The lies of satan? The nay sayers of the world?Where will that get us? No where! So many times we miss our blessings on our way to our miracles! (thanks 4R for that word) So many of us miss the blessings ( I know I have done that) when we look to the side or behind us instead of keeping our eye on the prize, all that Jesus wants us to have. If we just believe in what He tells us and trust in Him then everything will fall in place in His time not ours. God knows what is best for us WHEN it is best for us. Just because WE think it is best for our prayers to be answered NOW, God is in control! I have said more than once thru the years that " I don't want to be 40 and starting my family" and I sure didn't think I would be doing alone but God had other plans. Here I am only a few months from 40 and I'm single and look where God has brought me too, not to mention where He has brought me FROM! Is this going to be easy? NO! Is it going to be without disappointment? NO! But you have to go thru some tests to get a testimony(again thanks 4R!) and go thru a mess to get a message but OH what a sweet sweet reward is waiting on us all!!!! Love and blessings to all!!!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Fundraising Items here!!!
Monday, July 4, 2011
John 11:40
The past couple have days have been different. I can't explain it. I know God is in control no matter what, but the past couple days I have been a little down. I know my profile and all the paper work will be in Utah on 7-5-11 and that everything could really start moving ( not that it hasn't up to this point) I guess satan is really trying to get to me. I just keep repeating John 11:40. I believe in the glory of God and I see it daily. I am of flesh I have my faults but God loves me just the same, faults and all! I am so thankful for that. I have all the support that one person can ask for. I guess I'm overwhelmed by all of the support not just from family but from friends as well. Everyone tells me that they think I will make a great mom, that just melts my heart. I guess that what I am feeling is part of the roller coaster ride. God has provided me with an amazing support system of adoptive mothers that I can talk to at anytime and for that too I am thankful. I am just so excited about being a mother I just want her to hurry up and get here. I know all things happen on Gods time and not Gina's time, that is one of my toughest battles.
This blog is not only for my friends and family to be kept up to date on what is going on but it for Rama Grace as well. So one day she will be able to pull this up and see just how much she is loved and wanted. To let her know what all it has taken to get her here.
I find that my prayers are more for her birth parents. I can't begin to even think of the courage that it is taking for them to give their child to another to raise. I'm thankful that they have chose life and to help find her a loving home and to bless me by fulfilling a life long dream of mine. To be a mother. I will never be able to put into words just what that means to me. I don't know of anyone who can.
Please keep all of us in prayer daily and to continue pray after she is home not only for she and I but for the birth parents as well.
This blog is not only for my friends and family to be kept up to date on what is going on but it for Rama Grace as well. So one day she will be able to pull this up and see just how much she is loved and wanted. To let her know what all it has taken to get her here.
I find that my prayers are more for her birth parents. I can't begin to even think of the courage that it is taking for them to give their child to another to raise. I'm thankful that they have chose life and to help find her a loving home and to bless me by fulfilling a life long dream of mine. To be a mother. I will never be able to put into words just what that means to me. I don't know of anyone who can.
Please keep all of us in prayer daily and to continue pray after she is home not only for she and I but for the birth parents as well.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Profile Posted
I've just posted my profile on here to view click on the image, then you can enlarge the image to read the profile, feel free to comment on any or all of the post. Thanks again for all the love, support and prayers!
Profile is COMPLETE!!!!
Today has been a HUGE day!! I have put together all the copies of the profile that my agency wanted, completed the paper work that they ask for and mailed them!!! I have been a wreck all day! Praise God that He is in control of this and not me!!
You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done.
~ Psalm 92:4, NLT
You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done.
~ Psalm 92:4, NLT
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