June 21,2011

 This is my first ever blog, so bare with me as a learn what it is that I am doing. The purpose of this blog is 1) to help keep family and friends updated on my adoption process and 2) help raise money to bring Rama Grace home sooner!!
  At this point I have completed my home study, found an agency that I love, and have a possible match for a baby girl due around the middle of Oct. 2011. I know this may not seem like a lot to some people but to me and other adoptive families that I know all this has happened extremely fast! I first have to give praise to God for making all of this possible, without Him none of this would have even happened!
 About 4 months ago a couple I know got a call that they had been matched with a baby and they were leaving in a few days to go pick her up. I knew the struggles they had trying to adopt but for some reason when I heard this news my heart broke and I felt so much envy! I tried to hide my emotions from everyone but I am sure I failed. I prayed day and night for God to take the feelings I was having away but He didn't they kept getting worse as the days went by. Then I found out that they were on the way to pick up their brand new baby girl! I couldn't even read the facebook posts or the church emails updating everyone on how happy they all were, how beautiful she is or even look at pictures. Then one night I reached out to my brother, my pastor. I had such guilt about the envy I was feeling I had to talk to someone. As I was pouring my heart out to my pastor it became clear that God had been preparing me for me to adopt a daughter of my very OWN!!!!
  For months before I thought God had been preparing me for another mission trip, which I was fighting against or that he was preparing me for a relationship. Neither  was something I wanted! I had been on a medical mission trip in 2010, grateful for the experience but not wanting to go again. I am divorced and have been for several years and have been quite happy being single so the thought of a new relationship was NOT something I had been praying for either! ( come to find out several other people had been praying that FOR me)
 On the day God revealed to me that His plan was to give me my dream, of making me a mother, I felt as if the entire world was lifted off my shoulders! God told me plainly "You have a daughter, her name is Grace,because by my grace you will have her" So how do you argue with that? Ok so where do I start? God had placed several adoptive families in my life so I began talking to them asking them to help me pray and to help guide me in what needs to be done.
 My family and friends have amazed me with all the prayers and support they give so freely to me and to Rama Grace. I truly have the best family and friends that anyone could ask for!!
 In the near future I will have some fundraising items for sale on here along with information on how and where you can make a donation if you feel lead to do so. I look forward to blogging and hearing from all of you and making new friends! John 11:40