I'm not looking at the nails anymore

Sitting in church this morning I couldn't help but think how many times I allowed satan to dampen my day. Instead of keeping my eye on the prize(Jesus & His blessings) I listened to satan telling me I can't raise a child on my own, what are ya going to say when she asks " who is my daddy? why don't I have a daddy? all the bad that he could fill my head with. Me being flesh allowed that to happen for brief periods this week. Lord forgive me for being weak and not 100% trusting in You the way You have grown me up to do.I don't have the answers to those questions and that is ok, God has those answers and He will give them to me when it is time. Instead of  looking at what is causing my pain I will keep my eyes on my Lord, my love and my joy.

 I know that God has brought me this far and He will not leave me or forsake me. I know He has plans for me ( Jeremiah .29:11) and that He will provide what I need when I need it. I've told many people during this process that my faith has grown so much and that no matter what I give ALL praise to Him no matter what tomorrow brings! Please do not think I am doubting what God has done, is doing and IS going to do in my life or with  my adoption..I know that He is bringing Rama Grace home!!!

    I have several adoptive parents tell me that I will have good days and bad days during this process and a lot of stress, I give God praise that until this week that has not been an issue. I can say that stress has not  been increased at all. And the "bad" days this week haven't been as bad as they could be. I'm just confessing to God and to you all that I am weak I need prayer to help me keep my eyes and ears only on God, no one else. Yeah I've had a couple people make comments like" Well you won't be like a REAL mom" but you know that wasn't meant to hurt me it was said because that person really don't understand adoption. The good days and the support of family and friends far out weigh the bad. By God's grace my daughter will be here in His time not mine, I just have to continue to pray, stay in the Word and surround my self with the people who love God and who love me!