Blessings...........

  The more I learn about the adoption process as I go and the more I learn about me the more I see that I am not thankful enough for the blessing in my life. God has and is so good to me, that sometimes I think I am unworthy. But thankful beyond measure that He is blessing me the way He is.
 I don't want people to think that this has been easy or that there has been no moments of " Lord what am I thinking?" Satan tries to tear down what God has been giving me by placing doubt in my mind that I, as a single woman, can do this on my own. On the days that I need strength to hold my head up and say "God has got this!" I think of some of my favorite Bible stories, one is the woman at the well. She thought that she was unlovable but Jesus  not only told her of a great love but He showed her the greatest love of all. The love of God, one that has always and always will heal the broken heart, give strength to the weak, voice to the mute and sound to the deaf. To me this story has taught me that no matter what my past, all is forgiven by Him, never to be brought up again, that His love in enough! The second is in Matthew Ch 9, when the man came to Jesus because his daughter had died. Jesus went to the woman looked at her and said in verse 22, "Take heart, daughter. Your faith has healed you"and the woman was healed from that moment ." I am healed, I'm not perfect but I am healed. Healed from my sins, my weakness, my pride and all my hurts. Does this mean I will never have pain or disappointments again, No. It means that no matter what the future holds that I can always trust in His love and that all wounds will be healed by my Lord and savior. This adoption in the healing that I have longed for for many years. I wanted a child from the time I knew what being a mother meant. I had dreamed of having a daughter, all that I would do with her, how I would love her and teach her and watch her grow. Then years passed by and I thought that my desire was not what God's desire was for me. He had placed many wonderful children in my life over the years, I mean how many people say they have hundreds of kids??? I have always referred to the youth groups I have worked with over the years as "my kids" and friends of my niece that would come to the house that I have watched grow up as "my kids" so see I am a mother right? But the hole was still in my heart. So was my desire trying to rise above what God wanted for me? If God's will was not for me to be a mother He would and could take this desire from me if I just prayed hard enough! I just know He can and will, all I have to do is ask. Well I did over and over but the desire was still there. It wasn't until the past few months that I know see that He does want to give me my hearts desire and that He is providing that way now. I just have to keep Him in the center of my life, the center of my adoption, and the center of EVERYTHING! He promises in Mark 11:24 Whatever you ask for in prayer, Believe that you have received it and it WILL be yours!!! So I am claiming that my daughter, Rama Grace is coming and that the moment she is laid in my arms I will give her back to God, she is His, not mine. He is only trusting me to guide her while she is here on Earth. Without Him I would not be where I am in the adoption process or in life in general.Please keep praying for us both that God will give us strength to endure the journey to find each other and for our safety until we are together in our forever family!!!